xp log: kippei and shinji

[shattermelt]

Kippei did finally manage to sleep, but he woke up feeling stiff and sore, as if he'd been tense and restless all night. He woke up early, and at first didn't remember why he felt so sick and cold--he rolled over and reached for Shinji, and then froze. Right. No Shinji. He struggled to breathe for a moment, then panicked as he heard the low rumbling sound that was the first sign he was losing control of his powers. Fuck. He clamped down on his emotions, blanking his mind until everything calmed down. Stupid. Really stupid. He hadn't had this much trouble keeping a hold of himself since... well, since he met Shinji.

He swallowed hard, tasting acid, and stared through the dimness to the other bed where Shinji was curled up with Kii. So far away. He needed Shinji, needed him like he'd never needed anyone or anything in his life, and Shinji didn't know him anymore. It hurt like nothing else ever had. This was, literally, one of his worst nightmares come to life.

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"But I don't know what that is," Shinji mumbled, embarassed but wanting to tell the truth. He didn't know about love and helping and having people do things for you for no reason. He sighed glumly and wondered if he was ever going to understand.

"I'm not very good at this." His fingers tugged a little at Kippei's shirt before settling again. "How do I take care of Kii?"

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"I'll show you," Kippei told him, smiling a little. He knew Shinji didn't know what it was, but it didn't matter if he didn't understand the reason, so long as he remembered that it was true. "We'll take him out a bit later. First, lesson number two, and this is important. You have powers. Use them. You can hear things and do things with people's minds and you'll have to relearn some things, but right now you don't have to know how they work. They just do."

This was probably a bit dangerous, telling Shinji to use his powers with no training whatsoever, but it would go a long way toward helping him relearn things. "You can't turn it off anyway, so use it to your advantage. I'm used to having you in my head, and I don't mind. I like knowing that you can tell I mean exactly what I say. Whenever you're afraid or confused about something, use that amazing brain of yours and pick it out of someone's head--mine, preferably, but whoever is close or you think might have the answer. It's what you are. Don't be afraid to use it."

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Shinji stared, wide-eyed, unable to really understand what powers were, or how they had them, or why or anything, but he did know it was there; could feel it getting stronger all the time and hear more and more. He didn't think he would like it when that got much louder but if it helped him learn things then he supposed that was okay.

"What if I'm comfused about everything? I can't steal everything off someone else...can I?"

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Kippei shrugged and rubbed the back of his neck, wishing he knew more about Shinji's powers to begin with. There were so many things that could go wrong here, but he didn't know any other way to get Shinji the massive amounts of information that he needed.

"You probably can," he answered. "I dunno if it would hurt the other person or not. Sometimes you just read thoughts and sometimes you steal them. I don't know what the difference is. We should get you back in training, or." He grimaced. "Might should have you spend some time in the quiet room." He fell silent, not liking that idea at all, but it was already set up to handle Shinji and Kippei could stay there with him.

A sigh punctuated his thoughts and he fell backward onto Shinji's bed, keeping ahold of Shinji's hand. "I miss having you in my head," he muttered, half to himself and half to Shinji. "Neither of us do too well when you aren't or you can't for some reason. I miss knowing that you're picking up all the things I'm not saying." He felt lost, suddenly, in the enormity of just how far they had to go here. Shinji didn't remember ANYTHING.

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Shinji just stared, because he had no idea how it worked and right then, didn't really care about it as anything other than a way to get information. He felt bad, that he wasn't giving Kippei something he needed, but at the same time, was incredibly embarassed for some reason, by the thought of going through someone else's head.

"You...you make the room shake?" That, at least, he had figured out for himself. It didn't scare him so much as fascinate. How did you make the room shake?

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Kippei looked up again, amused. "Something like that. They're seismic tremors. Earthquakes," he clarified, and was suddenly briefly grinning at the memory of Shinji sitting in his class trying to figure out his interest in geology.

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Shinji just stared at him, wide-eyed in awe, like any little boy who finds out superman is real. Kippei was amazing, of that Shinji had no doubts, but it confused him as to why he hung out with...Shinji. Sighing, Shinji reached out and picked up Kii, dumping the furball in his lap and considering.

"Why is my cat blue? Is that normal?"

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Kippei looked at him thoughtfully for a minute, and then gave him a slow, wicked grin. "He's yours. Normally you're blue, too--well, your hair is. If you overuse your power and burn yourself out you go completely blue, skin and hair and everything and it is the sexiest damn thing."

He held the grin for bit longer and then looked down with a sigh. "But, you don't like it. You think it looks stupid or something, I dunno. And when you burn out your powers don't work for a while, which makes you really cranky and you can't hear me and that kind of sucks."

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Shinji wondered if his eyes were always going to be like saucers. He pointed at himself, incredulous.

"I turn...blue!? Like, everything?! All of me, blue? That is weird! No wonder I didn't like it! Who would want to turn blue! You're not blue, so why would I want to be blue...my hair is really blue?" He snatched it up and stared at the white strands, confused.

"How come its white then? Is is supposed to be white? If I didn't have powers, would I be white?"

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"I like you blue," Kippei repeated stubbornly. "It's sexy." But he gave up because he'd never won that argument even before Shinji lost his memory.

"Right now, you're white, because....I'm not sure actually." He paused, thinking. "Echizen stole your power. Kind of. He can use other mutant's powers for a certain period of time, and he used yours on you, which was apparently a really fucking bad idea." He growled a bit, resolving to beat the tar out of Echizen the next time he got the chance. "I think that you... I don't know," he said unhappily. "I don't know what you did. You started fading and then you turned white and you were laying on the ground and it was awful, you were hurting and I didn't know what to do and then you just... looked at me," and god, he was never going to forget that look for the rest of his life, it was burned into his brain. "And you did whatever you did and passed out, and I tackled Echizen and made him stop and carried you home and when you woke up, everything was gone."

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"....oh." That didn't sound fun or interesting at all. Kind of morbid actually. And it didn't explain why he was white now. Oh well. It was kind of nice though, knowing that when he did turn blue again, Kippei would still like him...

"What's sexy?"

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Kippei just looked at him, his eyes going dark and heated and lingering on his face, his lips, traveling down his body and back up. "It's you," he said finally in a soft, husky voice. Which was true, but it wasn't what Shinji was asking.

"Sexy is... when it makes you hot, makes you want someone. When you think they're attractive--like really really attractive-- and you want to kiss them and... stuff." Okay even the first time around Shinji hadn't know what any of that was. Kippei chuckled a little. "You'll figure it out." Kippei was going to make damn sure of that, because memory or no memory he knew Shinji was attracted to him and that didn't change.

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What made a person hot? Well, Shinji supposed he was sort of warm, but he dont know it was being sexy that made you that way. And he wasn't hot so he mustn't have been that sexy. Was that a bad thing? And want someone how? Want to cuddle them, because he liked cuddling Kippei, it made him feel less stupid and afraid. But..kiss them? He frowned, watching Kippei dubiously.

"What's a kiss?"

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Oh, he did not just ask that. Of course he did. Kippei just stared at him, wide dark eyes drawn to Shinji's mouth in spite of himself and seriously, he'd never wanted to kiss anyone so much in his life. Just, knowing what it was like, knowing Shinji's mouth inside out and knowing that right now, he really probably shouldn't... damn.

He swallowed hard, not that it helped with the sudden dryness in his mouth. "I could show you," he suggested, because his brain had apparently gone on vacation, but then Shinji tended to do that to him at the best of times, and this was hardly the best of times. His voice came out all low and deep and rumbly, but he barely noticed, because. Shinji's mouth.

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"It's something you show them? Or...something you do?" Shinji frowned, because Kippei sounded different all a sudden and Shinji really liked that sound. Low and like he knew something Shinji didn't and was going to get what he wanted and he was looking at Shinji's...mouth? Blinking, Shinji tapped a finger against his lips curiously.

"It has something to do with my mouth?"

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Kippei laughed, a slow, dark chuckle. "It's all about your mouth," he said, and his voice sounded slow and dark too. He leaned forward, reaching out to just brush the tips of his fingers across Shinji's cheek and down to his mouth, lightly over his lips. "C'mere," he whispered. "Come here and let me... kiss you." He was close, now, so close that all he could see was Shinji's face, his eyes wide and his lips just parted and cheeks flushed and god, you're beautiful.

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Shinji stared, wide-eyed and fascinated as Kippei's fingers trailed over his lips and he felt warmer than he had been a moment ago, and sort of...fuzzy. The sound of Kippei's voice was intoxicating and he leant forward, to get closer and hear more and to learn...what a kiss was. But then he heard Kippei's voice in his head and frowned a little.

"What's beautiful mean?" He whispered, not daring to move away when all he could see was Kippei and it felt right and nice and he didn't want to move.

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"It means you," Kippei told him, which he considered the truest and best answer to that question. Shinji was everything that was beautiful and sexy and gorgeous, like the very definition of it. If you looked it up in the dictionary, Kippei was quite certain that you would find Shinji's picture there--in his dictionary, at any rate.

Shinji's breath was warm on his lips and he wasn't moving, and Kippei figured he could always tell him that he was just showing him what a kiss was, but really, he just wanted to kiss Shinji so badly that he didn't care. He leaned just a bit closer and laid his lips on Shinji's perfect mouth, still slightly open mouth and god, he couldn't have resisted if he'd tried--which admittedly he didn't--the temptation to let his tongue slip out, just a little bit, to taste the color of wonder.

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Surprised by the answer, and not thinking that was what it meant at all, but also not willing to argue, Shinji just stared in wide-eyed wonder as Kippei's mouth came forward and pressed against his and it was warm and made his stomach do little flip flops and it was...amazing. Kissing, Shinji decided, was very good. But then something wet and slippery traced along the inside of his lips and he pulled back, startled, hand flying to his mouth.

"What...what was that?"

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Kippei had the grace to look slightly ashamed of himself, only he really, really wasn't because kissing Shinji was fucking awesome and he tasted damn good, like, the best thing ever. So it wasn't like he was sorry, except for the part where Shinji might think it was bad or wrong or something and never let him do it again.

"Well," he said, and he ducked his head a little, rubbing the back of his neck. "There's like, different kinds of kissing. You can use your tongue, if you want to, and we...you. Um. You taste really good." He thought he was maybe just a little incoherent, but seriously, kissing Shinji made his brain shut down and he really wanted to do it again, like a lot. And more. Yeah. He was staring at Shinji's mouth again but he couldn't seem to stop.

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Shinji snuck away a little, still covering his mouth with his hand. It hadn't felt bad...in fact it had been really good, but it was still weird to think of putting his tongue in someone's mouth, or someone putting their tongue in his. His face felt warm but he couldn't say why.

"What other sorts of kisses are there? Dont show me! Just...say."

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Kippei was a little disappointed, because really this show and tell thing was kind of fun, but Shinji looked a bit overwhelmed so he sighed and flopped back to lay on the bed again, resting his hand on Shinji's knee.

"There's all kinds," he drawled. "Basically it's when you put your mouth on something. You can kiss people or you know... what the fuck ever you want to, but I dunno why you'd want to. Lips, tongue, teeth, soft and light or deep and hard or fast and messy, you know, whatever. I love your mouth, it's like the hottest thing ever created. I like kissing you all kinds of ways." He grinned, watching Shinji's expression.

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Shinji didn't take his hand away from his mouth, very aware of Kippei staring at his mouth and saying really embarassing things about it. Kippei seemed to know Shinji's mouth a lot better than Shinji did, which was more than a little unnerving. Okay, so kisses were...interesting.

"Why do people sleep in beds? And how come its not as good if the blankets arent heavy? Why do my feet get cold? And how come one pillow isnt enough and two pillows is too much? Isnt there an in between pillow?" Yeah, he had looked for the nearest topic change, and they were on his bed after all.

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Kippei started laughing, and rubbed his hand back and forth over Shinji's knee, squeezing it affectionately. "People sleep in beds because it's more comfortable. Sleeping on the floor seriously sucks, but you can try it if you want." He had no idea about the blankets thing, or the pillows, but that was just Shinji. "Usually you wear socks to bed, because you love socks for some reason, and I guess then your feet don't get cold. I dunno about the rest of it, that's just you." He chuckled, amused. Shinji was so damn cute. "And I guess your inbetween pillow is me--you sleep on me often enough. I mean, you did." He fell silent, remembering that Shinji wasn't going to be sleeping with him anymore. It was really hard to go back to sleeping without him.

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Kippei was laughing at him and Shinji pouted a little, not liking being laughed at at all, but it didn't seem to be the bad sort of being laughed at. He didn't think he wanted to try sleeping on the floor...on the ground maybe, if there were enough blankets and things and they were outside somewhere he liked, but nope.

"Socks?" He thought about it for a minute, then remembered socks went on your feet. "Oh, socks. Where do I keep my socks?" He wanted them right now. Lots of socks, that he could put on his feet because they were damn cold. Plus, it would take his mind of the embarassing fact he used to sleep on someone.