xp log: kippei and shinji

[shattermelt]

Kippei did finally manage to sleep, but he woke up feeling stiff and sore, as if he'd been tense and restless all night. He woke up early, and at first didn't remember why he felt so sick and cold--he rolled over and reached for Shinji, and then froze. Right. No Shinji. He struggled to breathe for a moment, then panicked as he heard the low rumbling sound that was the first sign he was losing control of his powers. Fuck. He clamped down on his emotions, blanking his mind until everything calmed down. Stupid. Really stupid. He hadn't had this much trouble keeping a hold of himself since... well, since he met Shinji.

He swallowed hard, tasting acid, and stared through the dimness to the other bed where Shinji was curled up with Kii. So far away. He needed Shinji, needed him like he'd never needed anyone or anything in his life, and Shinji didn't know him anymore. It hurt like nothing else ever had. This was, literally, one of his worst nightmares come to life.