xp log: kippei and shinji

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Kippei found himself too restless to sleep the first night they'd been back, and he'd spent most of it thinking, quietly, while Shinji slept. It was a gradual realisation of the fact that he'd already made a decision--he wanted out, and he wanted Shinji with him, and he was going to find a way to do it. If Shinji couldn't go without the quiet room, then Kippei would have to find a way to bring the quiet room to him.

He took time after that, as often as he could without being too obvious, walking around the city looking for a place to live, a place that he could build Shinji a room of his own. And when he was at school, he went to look at the room they'd built there, asking questions and finding out how it was built and what it did, exactly, and how it all worked. Details, because he'd need them to build one of his own and he couldn't afford to mess it up or Shinji would get hurt.

It was a slow process, however, because he couldn't take too much time at it or Shinji would wonder why he was so busy all of a sudden, and he couldn't think about any of it when Shinji was there. He wanted it to be a surprise, when it was finally done. Not that it really required much thinking about; he knew what he had to do, was learning how to do it, knowledge that could be tucked safely away, and the rest was just doing it. So it was fairly easy for him to not think of it at all when Shinji was around, since he was pretty focused on Shinji then anyway.

He hummed, pleased with himself as he went to pick Shinji up at the end of one of his training classes. Kippei was rather relieved that Shinji was getting back to where he'd been before in terms of control. It scared the hell out of him to think that even Shinji didn't really know what the hell to do with the crazy power inside of his head.

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Shinji didn't like training. It left him open to more thoughts than usual and he always felt detached from his body, as if he was spread through all the thought patterns he would hear. It always took a long time to settle down and close off a little and all he wanted was to see Kippei and only hear Kippei and so it was a huge relief when he walked out of the quiet room and came face to face with Kippei. He didn't bother saying anything, just let his smile stretch as wide as it wanted and reached up to wrap his arms around Kippei's neck, hanging off him and burying his face in one broad shoulder, sighing in relief.

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Kippei let out his own sigh of relief as Shinji settled into his arms, all the pieces of his world fitting quietly into place again and he smiled too, kissing Shinji's temple and letting himself soak up the warm feeling.

"Hey," he said finally. "I missed you."

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Everything was quieter when Kippei was there; everything in Shinji's head focussing on him alone, ignoring the rest so it was just a hum in the back of his head. He smiled brightly and leant back to rest his forehead against Kippei's, staring at the midnight blue eyes.

"I missed you too. I always miss you when I have to go to training."

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"Yeah," Kippei agreed, lifting one hand to smooth Shinji's hair back. "I always miss you anywhere." It would be nice, sometimes, for neither of them to ever have to do anything, to be able to stay together just them forever and not have to go anywhere alone. He thought maybe it was just that he was still getting over the trauma of having nearly lost everything, because he didn't remember it being quite this bad, before, but it hurt with a deep, total ache to be away from Shinji even for a little while, even for good reasons, necessary things.

"Ready to go?" he asked.

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"Yeah..." Shinji couldn't stop smiling, leaning in that last little bit to kiss Kippei and then smirking a little. "I feel tired...you should carry me." Kippei would too, unless he felt a little sadistic in which case he would say Shinji was lazy and make him walk. But usually Kippei was far from sadistic.

"What did you do, while I was at training?"

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Kippei chuckled but he wrapped his arms around Shinji and lifted him, making him weightless at the same time and tucking Shinji's legs around his waist, carrying him off toward their room.

"Was just wandering around, baby, waiting for you." He kissed Shinji's hair, delighting in how light he was and how easily he fit against him, just like this. Just like this.

When he got to their room, however, he didn't go in, merely opened the door and waited. He was unsurprised to find Kii nosing around the open door almost immediately, like he'd been waiting for them, and meowing as if he was asking to be let out. "Yeah come on," Kippei told him, holding the door open for him.

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Shinji blinked, stumped. Just wandered around. That was it. No further thought about it than that. He stared at Kii and smiled softly, mentally stroking the little kitten and watching it stretch happily and pad along, winding around Kippei's feet.

"Mmm...where did you go, when you wandered around?"

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"Around and about," Kippei answered absently, trying not to trip over the kitten as he shut the door again and headed outside. "Went for a walk and stuff. Got you something." He'd been gone for a while so it was no wonder the cat was ready to go out, and it was Kippei's opinion that after Shinji had been shut up in training all day until he looked pale, he could do with a little fresh air, and Kippei himself could never have too much, so it worked out nicely.

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Shinji smiled brightly, amused by Kii's leaping around trying to chew on Kippei's shoelaces while they were walking.

"You got me something?" He wanted to know, immediately, what it was and looked at Kippei expectantly. "What is it?"

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"You'll see," Kippei told him, still concentrating on not stepping on the damn cat, or kicking him by accident. Idiot thing. Why couldn't it just walk like normal people?

"It's not much," he warned. "I just saw it and I thought you might like it."

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Shinji didn't get how Kippei thought he could stick 'from me' and 'not much' in the same sentence. He shook his head and chuckled softly under his breath.

"Silly...it's from you. That makes it special. Really special. Everything you do is special."

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Kippei was amused, and nuzzled him briefly before he opened the outside door, waiting patiently for the cat to unwind himself from around his ankles and go through before he went out himself.

"You never know," he said mildly, "it might be cheap and tacky and silly, and maybe you'll just pretend to like it because I gave it to you, but you'll secretly wonder why the hell I thought you would want it."

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Kii ran out into the yard and started poking around the gardens. Shinji smiled at the simple way Kii thought and let him wander, snuggling against Kippei instead, enjoying being with him out in the open, where Kippei was the most happy.

"I wont pretend...its from you. Even if it was a bottle of water, I would love it."

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Kippei chuckled and found a patch of grass to sit down in, setting Shinji down first and digging a small package out of his pocket before he sat down beside him.

"Well," he allowed, "it's at least better than that." He handed it to Shinji with a tiny smirk, wrapped only in a small plastic bag from a store. A candy store. Shinji had rediscovered ice cream, and loved it, but Kippei was pretty sure he hadn't had chocolate yet. At least, not the really good kind.

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Shinji blinked at the little plastic bag. He looked from it to Kippei and back again, fascinated. A present from Kippei. He tentatively peeked inside and saw little paper wrappers. Stranger and stranger. Carefully taking one out of the bag, he stared at it in his palm before slowly unwrapping it. Kii came over and sniffed at it but Shinji lifted it away and frowned at the kitten.

"No, it's mine..." He even stuck his tongue out at Kii, transfixed by the little brown square in his hand. It looked like food, so he sniffed it and it smelt...good. Really good. Glancing at Kippei he very carefully put it in his mouth and sucked on it and...it melted! His eyes went wide and he stared at Kippei, stunned as gooey chocolatey goodness filled his mouth.

Oh my god! Oh my god, Kippei! This is...this is! Oh my god!

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Kippei's smirk got a little wider, as he wrapped his arms around one knee and watched Shinji eating chocolate, feeling very highly pleased with himself. Add one more to the list of 'food that makes Shinji make sex noises', which he felt was very important research, all things considered.

Yeah, he answered smugly. It is.

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Shinji's brain was misfiring, turning to mush, flying off into chocolate heaven. He fell back into the grass and stared at the sky, feeling more than a little orgasmic, thrilled by the taste in his mouth, sliding down his throat into his stomach, thinking this was just about the next best thing after ice cream and Kippei.

I knew you didn't get me a sucky present.

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Kippei laughed. I was just teasing, but I might someday, just to see what you would say. He grinned, laying back and stretching out beside Shinji, thoroughly pleased with himself and the world and his gorgeous boyfriend.

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Shinji enjoyed the lingering taste in his mouth, tucking the rest away in the bag for later. Much later, in bed with Kippei when he wanted to share it with Kippei and yeah...that could so lead to equally yummy sex. He leant up on an elbow and nuzzled Kippei's neck, licking at the skin, coming eye to eye with Kii doing the same thing. Shinji frowned and pushed the kitten away, sprawling against Kippei.

Mine! He told everything in the vicinity, Kii included.

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Kippei laughed out loud, amused that Shinji was having pretty much the same reaction he always had to Kii macking on Shinji. Careful, you'll hurt his feelings, he warned, a wicked glint of mischief in his eyes.

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Shinji rolled his eyes and mentally pushed Kii in the direction of a particularly bright, pleasant smelling flower the little kitten seemed transfixed by, leaving Shinji with Kippei all to himself.

His brain's so small, he'd forget in an hour if I did hurt his feelings Shinji grumbled mentally. "Besides, he can't do this." Shinji smirked and leant down to kiss Kippei.

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Damn right he couldn't do that, and no one else could either--no one but Shinji could take his breath away so easily and so completely, and Kippei felt like he was falling as he slid his fingers into Shinji's hair and deepened the kiss until he drowned in it.

It was like drugs, really good drugs, and he came up for air as heavy-eyed and smiling with pleased content as if it had been. I love you, he whispered in Shinji's mind. I really, really love you.

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I know, Shinji returned with a smile. I really, really know. And he did; knew like no one else could ever know that someone loved them because he got to hear it the way Kippei thought it and that was the best thing ever. He stroked Kippei's cheek, fascinated as ever that Kippei liked him at all, let alone loved him so completely.

"I love you too. Really, really."

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Kippei smiled widely back at him, purely and completely happy in a bright, soaring way that totally made up for the restlessness and edginess that he'd been feeling lately.

"You're gorgeous," he noted softly, reaching up to touch Shinji's face too, though he spoke more to himself than to Shinji. Breathtaking, and Shinji didn't even have to be kissing him for that to be so, apparently.

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Shinji flushed immediately, cheeks dusted a light red as he ducked behind his hair. Sometimes, Kippei was just embarassing.

"'m not..." Kippei was gorgeous. Sexy and handsome and hot as all hell and a genuinely gorgeous person. The most incredible person.

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"Don't hide," Kippei whispered, his lips curving in a warm smile as he reached up to tuck Shinji's hair behind his ears. Damn, they still needed to dye it again. "Don't hide, beautiful. I like looking at you." Understatement of the century. He loved it, loved the clear perfect lines of Shinji's face, lovely and familiar and Kippei could just look at him forever until his heart burst from feeling too much.

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Shinji just got redder, leaning in to the touch.

"Stop that! You're so embarassing sometimes," he grumbled. "I'm not...I'm not that stuff! You are. You're gorgeous and beautiful and perfect and I like looking at you and you're my most favourite person ever, for always and I only like the most incredible people so it's you. You're those things. I'm just silly and selfish and obsessed with weird things like...socks. I don't think people are supposed to be obsessed with socks.

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Kippei snorted. "I'm not, either. I'm just big and strong and stupid and I make rocks fall. I'm nothing like you." His voice softened on the last word and his finger traced a tender line down the side of Shinji's face.

"You're all of those things," he said simply. "To me, you are."

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Shinji just sighed and figured he was going to have to stay red and flustered for a while until Kippei snapped out of his mood. He figured he may as well enjoy it and tugged Kippei down into his lap, playing with his hair and stroking his cheek and watching Kii skip around after a butterfly.

"I like today. Today is a good today."

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Kippei would have to agree, but he was feeling sleepy and content and oddly sated, purring like a cat as he lay with his head in Shinji's lap and Shinji's fingers in his hair, and holy christ, it didn't get better than this. It just didn't.

"Every day is a good day when you're here," he murmured finally, eyes closed and smiling a little as he soaked up the soft touches.

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Shinji smiled and zoned out, just playing with Kippei's hair and watching Kii, enjoying the quiet in his head that only came with Kippei. Yeah, every day was a good day when Kippei was here.