xp log: kippei and shinji

[shattermelt]

Kippei was fairly certain that Shinji's 'hypothetical' question, like his own, referred to a real thing. Shinji was bored, and wanted to do something. Kippei had no idea what Shinji wanted to do, or if he even knew, but Kippei had a few ideas of his own. Shinji might not like them, but he might have a different idea so it was all good.

"So you want to do something?" he asked, once he found Shinji and kissed him three times--once for hello and once for reassurance that no, he wasn't dying, and once just because Shinji tasted that good.

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[ayretala.livejournal.com]

Shinji sat there, blinking, dazed from the kisses, and looked up at Kippei, mouth still a little open, as if he intended to say something but nothing quite managing to come out. His fingers came up to caress his lips, which were still tingling as a slow, pleased smile spread there and he shrugged.

"I'm bored." But Kippei already knew that.

[kementur.livejournal.com]

Kippei smiled back at him, smirking slightly because Shinji looked so dazed. He reached up to brush Shinji's hair back, rubbing his thumb gently over Shinji's temple.

"Did you have something in mind," he asked patiently, "or are you just bored?" He kind of hoped that Shinji did not already have an idea, and also that he could talk Shinji into one of his.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

Still staring at Kippei, Shinji just shook his head, no.

"No ideas. Just bored." He was a little caught in the loop of Kippei's thoughts and was having trouble keeping them separate from his own. It was something he had noticed happening more often, and trying to separate his own thoughts from all the others gave him a headache more often than not. He wanted to ask Kippei about it, but there was just something about the whole thing that made him nervous, though he couldn't say why. So he tried to ignore and not meddle and avoided the headaches as best he could.

"You have ideas."

[kementur.livejournal.com]

Kippei grinned, and then looked down and rubbed the back of his neck, a little embarrassed. Shinji might not like his ideas. The last time he'd tried something like this it hadn't worked out so well. But it had been awhile and Shinji was more used to things and--he hoped--more used to him, and... maybe it would be okay.

"I, um. I thought maybe you'd like to go jumping with me. Training," he clarified, since Shinji wouldn't know that Kippei didn't do most of his training here.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

"Jumping?" Shinji wondered if he was ever going to not have that fuzzy feeling in his head again. He frowned, not getting the concept of jumping being training at all, nor understanding why Kippei thought that would make him un-bored.

"You want to...go jumping."

[kementur.livejournal.com]

Kippei looked at him warily, uncertain if Shinji was going to freak out at the very idea. "Cliff jumping," he explained carefully. "Playing with gravity." He refrained from saying, we used to do it all the time, because he was sure Shinji was tired of hearing that by now.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

Blinking again. Kippei thought this was a good idea? But going outside by himself was a bad idea. Going to the shop alone was bad, but it was okay to jump off a cliff. Right.

"Okay?" He was amused, bemused and a little incredulous. "You better catch me."

[kementur.livejournal.com]

Kippei relaxed, sighing with relief. Alright then. Shinji looked a little confused, but he was amused, too, and he hadn't said no.

"Of course I will," he answered, and half turned, gesturing at his back. "You want a ride? It's kind of a long way, and you don't like to walk."

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

How far was a long way, and how did Kippei know he didn't like to walk that far? Oh...right. Shinji frowned some more, but got up and after only a brief hesitation he smirked and carefully climbed up onto Kippei's back.

"What if I get too heavy? I don't want to make you tired or sore or anything."

[kementur.livejournal.com]

"You're fine," Kippei replied, amused, remembering that Shinji used to worry about that even after he knew Kippei was making him weightless. He did that now, after he took a moment to just enjoy Shinji's weight warm against his back.

"You can't be heavy," he told Shinji absently as he headed out the door.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

"What do you mean? Of course I can be heavy, I'm a person and there is gravity and...and..." He blinked, yet again, staring at his hand, letting go of his near death grip on Kippei and watching it just hover in the air without any effort to hold it there. "And I don't weigh anything. That's so weird!" He played with it a while, waving his hand in the air until he got bored with it and wrapped his arms tight around Kippei again instead, hugging him and nuzzling against the back of his neck happily.

[kementur.livejournal.com]

Kippei smirked and explained, "You can't be heavy when I'm making you light. But you're too light to be really heavy anyway. Sometimes I make you heavier, but you're just... all light." Featherlight, and Kippei remembered thinking that Shinji was like a leaf when he first met him. Something that floated easily, naturally. He hummed his appreciation of the nuzzling, paying more attention to Shinji than he was to where he was going, but he knew the way by heart--out of the institute, down the road, out of town and into the foothills.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

Kippei had pretty funny ideas. A leaf? He wasn't sure if that was a good thing or not, but Shinji supposed he didnt mind being a leaf. Leafs floated on water and that would be fun, swept down a river, lying on the water in the sun. Yeah, he didn't mind being a leaf.

"You smell like the earth," Shinji mumbled, nuzzling Kippei's throat and letting his lips suck gently on the skin.

[kementur.livejournal.com]

"Earthmaster," Kippei reminded him absently, as if that had anything to do with how he smelled. He'd never actually been sure what Shinji meant by that, but it seemed appropriate so he'd never asked.

"You're going to make me trip if you're too distracting," he warned, though tripping was really less of a danger than him turning around and putting Shinji down to kiss the hell out of him, but either way, they wouldn't get where they were going.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

"Mmm," Shinji agreed to both statements and stopped sucking, just nuzzling close and closing his eyes, the soft lull of Kippei's footfalls letting him doze off, little puffs of warm breath splashing against Kippei's throat while his mind wandered through Kippei's, just listening; recieving.

[kementur.livejournal.com]

Kippei had forgotten that Shinji didn't know his codename, or his own for that matter, but Shinji didn't ask so he didn't worry about it. He could tell by the shift in Shinji's breathing when he drifted off, and smiled to himself, feeling warm and content inside. Shinji trusted him that much, still or again, but in any case it was comfortable. Comforting. Familiar and reassuring. He was still getting used to the idea that Shinji was his again, he thought wryly. It was such a relief that it was nearly as much of a shock as losing him in the first place had been.

He let his mind blank out, just feeling, focusing on the soft sound of Shinji's breath in his ear, watching his feet and listening to the steady rhythm of his own footsteps as he hiked out of town, heading for his favorite cliff.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

When Shinji drifted into some sort of wakefulness and looked around he frowned because there was no city, just trees and bushes and crunchy leaves under Kippei's feet, and the air was cleaner and the whole place smelt like Kippei; felt like Kippei. It was incredible. No wonder the other Shinji had liked coming out here. He smiled and kissed Kippei's cheek.

"I like it."

[kementur.livejournal.com]

Kippei grinned a little, pleased and relieved somehow to know that Shinji did like it, still and again. It wasn't that he really thought anything significant would have changed--Shinji was still Shinji. But it was still somehow pleasant relief to rediscover Shinji all over again, to slip back into the easy comfort of they way they fit together. Perfect.

"Yeah," he said softly. I know.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

Shinji just smiled lazily at that because yeah, Kippei already knew everything about him, which had been weird at first but wasn't too bad these days. Wasn't bad at all. It was a relief to know he didn't need to convince Kippei about most things.

Resting his head on one broad shoulder, Shinji watched the world go by, a little fascinated with how much...stuff was out here. No cars or buildings or anything like that; nothing like Shinji had ever seen before, but still somehow full.

"It's really quiet here." And that was a damn relief too.

[shattermelt.livejournal.com]

"Mhmm," Kippei murmured. Shinji liked it out here mostly because of that, he thought, but it was nice, to feel like they had the world all to themselves. He was climbing now, lightening himself as well as Shinji while he followed the path that wound up to the top of the cliff. The really high one with the stream at the bottom. The one he'd taken Shinji to for his birthday last year, and had it really been that long ago?

He realised, vaguely, that he'd missed their anniversary, sometime in the last week. Shinji, of course, didn't remember it at all. It had been a year. A year since he'd met Shinji, a year that they'd been together, a year of which Shinji did not remember a single day. It hurt suddenly, a distant ache that he ignored. New memories. Starting over.

"Here we go," he told Shinji, letting him down gently at the top and smiling faintly at his expression.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

Kippei was hurting again. Shinji winced and wrapped his arms tighter around Kippei, wishing he could remember everything, furious with himself for what he had done because it hurt Kippei, all the damn time. He wished he could take it all away and frowned, feeling something weird in his head and then all of Kippei's bad thoughts were gone and he blinked, pulling back and staring at Kippei's head. What just happened? What was that?

"What did I do?" He was aghast, unsure what he had done but certain he must have done it to Kippei.

[shattermelt.livejournal.com]

Kippei tilted his head, frowning slightly. Do? Ah. He smiled wryly, feeling the familiar blankness in his head that meant Shinji had done something.

"You're fine, baby," he murmured, reaching up to brush Shinji's cheek reassuringly. "You made me stop thinking about something. Probably because you didn't like it. It's okay. It doesn't hurt anything."

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

Shinji frowned, because Kippei definately didn't seem hurt or worried or anything, so Shinji assumed this was something that happened a lot. But that definately didn't make it fine.

"It's not fine! Is that how I...did I do that to myself, a whole lot?" Could he do that to Kippei?

[shattermelt.livejournal.com]

Kippei studied him seriously. "It's okay, Shinji," he insisted. "You didn't erase anything or do any permanent damage. All you did was change my surface thought into something else. Into nothing, I guess. I'm not sure... precisely how it works. But whatever I was thinking, I'll think of it again, later. You don't normally.... erase things. Not permanently. Unless..." His mouth compressed grimly. "Unless someone asks you to, or you feel it's necessary to do it to yourself. That I know of, you've only done it twice. Once for a... teammate," because Kippei was not sure that Bolt deserved to be called a friend after that, even if he was sorry, "and once on yourself."