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Kippei loved being at Rikkai. He liked the school and the team and if he couldn't be at Fudomine, there was nowhere else he'd rather be. But sometimes, sometimes it was very inconvenient. It meant he couldn't walk to and from school, that it took over an hour to get home instead of a few minutes, and more often than not, it meant he didn't see the others; the ones he still thought of as 'his' team in a rather proprietary way.

He considered himself a part of the team at Rikkai, but that was Yukimura's team; Kippei called it his in the sense that he belonged to it, but not in the sense that it belonged to him. There was definitely a difference. He didn't particularly mind it, that the Rikkai team was not his; he was the vice-captain and that was good enough for him. It wouldn't have been the same, being the captain of another team, and Fudomine had been special. He didn't really want to replace them, even if it wouldn't have been replacing them at all, because nothing could.

Still, all of this meant that he was busy, and had little free time after club duties and homework, and it was several days before he saw Shinji again. He managed this by basically blowing off his homework for the night, telling himself he'd do it later as there was less of it than usual, and heading over to Shinji's house, where one of Shinji's little sisters let him in. She cheerfully volunteered the fact, upon questioning, that Shinji was moping in his room, and Kippei thanked her absentmindedly as he made his way to Shinji's room, frowning slightly. Shinji was sulking, what the hell. He debated briefly about knocking, and then decided not to and simply opened the door and went in.

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"Bloody hell Sada, I told you if you came in one more time I was going to give you the wedgie of your life and tie you to your bedhead by your knickers!" Shinji growled, turning in his chair to glare at her and then blinked, freezing.

"...Kippei? What are you...who let you...you didn't even knock! And why are you using the door anyway? Uh...I won't tie you up by your underwear I swear." He mumbled the last, turning back around and closing his book, not sure why he was bothering to read it anyway. It wasn't like it would tell him anything he didn't already know. And it was distracting anyway, like Kippei in the doorway. God, Kippei was in his room.

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Kippei smiled faintly. "Hi," he said softly, closing the door behind him and looking around the room before he wandered over and took a seat on the bed, sitting cross-legged and tilting his head at Shinji with a look of curious amusement.

"I came to see you, your sister let me in, and she said if I knocked you would tell me to go away," he answered, counting off the answers on his fingers. "Why wouldn't I use the door?" He ignored the rest of it, since if Shinji even thought he could give him a wedgie Kippei was fairly certain it would be more entertaining than otherwise to let him try. Tying him up by his underwear, on the other hand, sounded kind of interesting, but he was pretty sure they weren't at that stage of the relationship yet.

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Shinji just blinked. Most people would have ignored him, but Kippei wasn't most people and he had gone and answered all his stupid half-arsed questions and then some. It made him feel immediately guilty, and then embarassed for feeling guilty.

"That's what the ladder in the window is for," Shinji muttered, feeling stupid because as if Kippei wanted to climb in his bedroom window.

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Kippei turned automatically to look over his shoulder at the window, blinking in surprise. "You have a ladder in your window?" he asked, bemused. And... that was what it was for?

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Shinji shrugged, feeling self concious about it now. He pulled his legs up on the chair and hugged them against his chest, watching Kippei.

"I wanted one, so Ishida built it for me for my birthday," he murmered softly. It wasn't helping his self-conciousness any having Kippei just sitting there on the bed.

"You didn't call or anything."

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Kippei blinked. Was he interrupting or something? He leaned back on his hands, studying Shinji with a slightly puzzled expression.

"Sorry. Did you want me to?" He'd wanted to see Shinji and he'd assumed Shinji would want to see him too, but maybe not. He looked around, but Shinji didn't look busy, he'd just been reading. "I can come back later if you want."

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"I didn't mean now!" Shinji frowned. Damnit why was this hard. "I figured you changed your mind," he admitted quietly. "It's been days you know. I waited at the street courts the first day but you didn't show. Then I thought maybe you would call the next day but you didn't call either. Or the day after." But here he was. "I thought maybe you were embarassed or something."

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Kippei stared at him. That was why he was moping in his room?

"Shinji, I haven't changed my mind in the last... what, three years, when I thought there was no chance I'd ever get to be with you, why the hell would I change it now?" He shook his head, incredulous. "Why would I be embarrassed? You know I don't usually get home in time to walk with you, and I didn't think about calling... you honestly thought I changed my mind? If I couldn't change it before there's no way I could change it now." He ran his fingers through his hair, a bit taken aback. Wasn't this supposed to be easier now?

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"...oh. That's good. I didn't want you to change your mind. But its not that easy to go from thinking you would never want me either you know." He shrugged and thought to hell with it, getting up and going to sit by Kippei, nudging him a little with his shoulder.

"Use the window next time? I'll leave it open for you."

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Kippei sighed, a bit relieved when Shinji came to sit with him, and pushed him down gently on the bed, leaning over to give him a long, slow kiss. The important things came first.

"Yeah," he said finally, smiling a bit and brushing Shinji's hair back. "I know. It's not easy." But it should be. He threw a speculative glance at the window. "You really have a ladder?" he asked curiously.

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"I really have a ladder," Shinji smirked, a little proudly. "I wanted one so you could climb in my window at night...but then when he gave it to me I realised you would never use it. I was really sad but now I'm not anymore. Now you can come see me whenever you want, even if its late or the door is locked. But if you use it at night, you have to stay over." He grinned at the condition, wrapping his arms tight around Kippei's shoulders and holding him close, kissing him back happily.

"I'm really glad you didn't change your mind."

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Kippei buried his face in Shinji's shoulder and just laughed, helplessly, amazed and amused and oh god.

"God, I can't believe this. All this time I thought..." He sighed, sobering, and propped himself up on one elbow to study Shinji's face. "I thought you should be with someone who's better for you, somebody... I dunno... like Akira or something. I'm not... " He dropped his eyes, watching his hand as it traveled slowly up and down Shinji's arm.

"I'm not good for you really, I didn't think it would be fair... An thinks I should have chased you and, told you I was interested a long time ago, but... you're special and you weren't for me, I thought you should have somebody better. I didn't ever think you'd be interested in me too." And all this time he'd been wrong, and Shinji had wanted him just as much, and it was unbelieveable.

He kissed Shinji again, because he could and it was that good and Shinji's mouth was hot and slick and sweet and he could do this forever. "Next time I'll use the window."

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Next time Kippei was using the window. So next time he was staying over? Shinji felt delighted little butterflies nervousl flapping in his belly. He reached up and caressed Kippei's cheek, then got up himself, kissing Kippei and pushing him down onto the bed, reversing them.

"You want me to be with Akira?" He smirked knowing that was not what Kippei meant. "I've fooled around a bit with Akira, but it wasn't the same. I couldn't make myself want my best friend like that. I don't really get you though, I mean...you are good for me. You don't let me get away with things just because I'm in a bad mood or anything, and you're my Buchou...I listen to you. And I want you the most, more than anyone...more than everyone combined. I just wanted you." He lay there for a moment, just watching Kippei, then smiled.

"You'll really stay over next time?"

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"I didn't want you to be with Akira," Kippei protested. "I just thought... it was more likely, I guess. I didn't see why you would want me when you could have someone your own age and someone you've known forever..." He stopped talking because it really did sound stupid when he said it out loud, and Shinji was looking at him like that and saying he wanted him the most, and it was the best feeling in the world, even if he thought Shinji was crazy for wanting him.

"Hell yes, what kind of question is that?" Of course he would stay over.

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Shinji couldn't help smiling at that, because Kippei was going to stay over and sure Shinji would put out the spare futon on the floor to make his mum happy but Kippei was sleeping in his bed, no matter what. For the whole night. Those butterflies were just going crazy.

"I don't want to be with Akira...he knows when I wet the bed as a kid...thats way too embarassing."

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Kippei laughed, and reached up to slide both hands into Shinji's hair, running through the length of it and then doing it again, massaging his scalp with gentle fingers.

"God, I love your hair," he said fervently, closing his eyes so he could feel it better, what it was like to have two handfuls of silk wrapped around his fingers. "Mmm," and he pulled Shinji down for another kiss, wishing he could stay tonight, but he still had homework and he hadn't told anyone where he was going.

"You are gorgeous," Kippei told him, a bit wistfully. Shinji should be with someone who was as beautiful and brilliant as he was.

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"So are you," Shinji murmered, a little dazed. Kippei's kisses did something to his brain; quieted it and made everything seem simple. Kippei was there and that was all that mattered. Everything else was just collateral. It made him stupidly pleased, that Kippei even liked his hair.

But he meant what he said; Kippei was gorgeous. Sexy and determined, and strong with an iron will and it made Shinji feel safe and stronger, like he could protect Kippei from anything if he had to.

He happily leant into the hands in his hair, not wanting Kippei to stop massaging his scalp because really, nothing had ever felt that good before.

"My hair loves you too."

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Kippei just smiled a little, quietly, and kept stroking Shinji's hair, slow rhythmic motions that were as soothing for him as they apparently were for Shinji.

"I've been wanting to do this forever," he murmured, watching the way the dark hair fell and caught the light as he worked his fingers through it. One of the first things that had caught his attention, so long ago, though certainly not the last.

Speaking of which... "Promise me you won't give up tennis completely? We can still play sometimes, just us. I won't argue about school if you at least give me that." Because he would miss it, a hell of a lot, playing tennis with Shinji. It still damn near broke his brain to think of Shinji never playing again ever.

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"Stupid," Shinji snorted, wrapping his arms tight around Kippei and tugging him down to hug him hard, kissing the top of his damn stubborn head. "I'll always play tennis with you." And he would, no matter what else happened. He didn't intend to quit; he had at least thought about that while moping about Kippei. Even if it was just so Kippei loved him more, he would never quit tennis. But he thought that was a pretty stupid reason to keep playing, so he wanted it for himself too. He wanted to be the best, and see Kippei smile at him like he used to.

"We'll play tennis whenever you want. Just us."

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Kippei relaxed, on some level he hadn't even realized was still tense, somehow incredibly relieved to hear that no matter what, he would at least have that much.

"I'm glad," he said quietly. "If you really wanted to quit, everything...you could. I love you no matter what and I want you, not just your tennis... but I would miss it a lot, if you quit." He couldn't really explain how much he would miss it, and why. It was one of those things that filled him with subtle horror, like someone losing a limb or something.

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It was a relief somehow, to know Kippei wouldn't change his mind just because Shinji quit tennis. It eased a subtle but all-consuming fear in the back of Shinji's mind.

"So...you won't dump me if I quit?" He hadn't actually meant to ask, but it scared him half to death, the mere thought that Kippei was doing all of this just to make him stay in tennis. He didn't think that was really possible that he could know Kippei so little as to be fooled that way, but he also knew he was a little stupid about Kippei and would pretty much believe anything he said.

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Kippei frowned and tugged him down to kiss him, hard. "Can I still do this if you quit? Yes. Can I still do this if I dump you? I think that would be a no, unless you think I am more of a jerk than I think I am. Shinji...I am never going to dump you, ever, not for any reason and certainly not for that. And you can't change your mind, either!" he said determinedly. He was going to do this right, and Shinji was never going to have a reason to change his mind.

It wasn't that he really thought that Shinji was going to, but if Shinji thought that Kippei could, maybe there was part of him that was having second thoughts himself, and that was just not happening.

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Shinji thought about it for a full minute before he smiled and nuzzled against Kippei's temple happily.

"Good. I can't change my mind, and neither can you. So I'll play tennis with you. Just not now. Now is for cuddling my stupid boyfriend who didn't call me for days. I can't believe your homework was more interesting than me. You better not have been having tea with that Yukimura guy."

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Kippei rolled his eyes, amused, and slid both hands down the length of Shinji's back to slip beneath his shirt, touching warm skin with another little breath of relief. That he could, that Shinji wanted him to, that they were here and together.

"Nothing is more interesting than you, including tea with Seiichi or anyone else, but homework has to get done whether I like it or not. And jeez, next time I'll call you," he grumbled. "How was I supposed to know you wanted me to?"

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"Because I always want to see you and talk to you and play with you and just be with you." Shinji smiled a little guiltily then. "But its okay, because I didn't call you either, but I only didn't call because I thought you didn't want me to." Which had been rather stupid too since he should have known Kippei never changed his mind about anything, ever.

"Mmm I'm more interesting than tea with your Buchou...thats cool."

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"You can call me anytime," Kippei told him, "even in the middle of the night." Actually he thought it might be kind of cool to have Shinji wake him up and talk to him in the dark when everyone else was sleeping. "I always like talking to you, I just like seeing you more, so I didn't think about calling." Talking on the phone seemed a poor substitute, but he supposed he could see the point.

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"It would be fun to call you in the middle of the night, but then maybe you would be tired at training and your Buchou wouldn't like that at all, so maybe I'll only call you then on weekends, but then I want you to be here, not on the phone, so maybe I should just call you at a normal time, but that's not as fun I don't think..." He would be thinking a lot on this problem later.

"You like seeing me more? More than anything?" He grinned then and kissed Kippei's mouth, missing the smirk that was usually there. "I like seeing you more than everything."

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"Yes, more than everything," Kippei agreed, a bit breathlessly, and he rolled them over again and got back to the business of learning Shinji's mouth by heart, taste and texture and oh, so good. He'd locked this away for so long, he thought he'd thrown away the key at one point, this hunger and desire to have Shinji for his own, to kiss and touch and just feel everything like it burning him out, fierce and incandescent.

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A strangled moan escaped Shinji and he felt hot, like he couldn't breathe, but he didn't want to, holding on and refusing to let go because it was hot in Kippei's mouth and wet and he tasted just like Shinji always imagined. He felt smothered by Kippei and loved it; the sense of sinking into the mattress and Kippei and Kippei's mouth intoxicating.

"Kippei," he sighed breathlessly and smiled, a genuine happy smile, fingers massaging the back of Kippei's neck in little slow circles while his brain tried to work, and failed. There wasn't anything else in the world other than Kippei, right? Right.

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Kippei was purring, a soft rumble in his chest as he arched into the slender fingers on his neck, closing his eyes as the shiver rippled down his spine. He felt like he was melting, drowning, and he didn't care at all.

"Mmmm," he said, because that was about the extent of his vocabulary at the moment; that, and Shinji's name in a low, throaty murmur as he nuzzled against his neck. Shinji smelled good, he decided, and couldn't classify the scent, what it was made of, as anything other than just Shinji.

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Kippei was apparently just as braindead and it amused Shinji no end. He wiggled a little until he could better wrap arms and legs around Kippei, running his hands down Kippei's spine to sooth away the shiver. Kippei smelt good, and tasted good and just everything was too good really, like a dream.

"You can stay a while right? I know you have homeword and stuff, but just for a little bit, you can stay? Like this?"

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"Mhmm," Kippei assured him, not intending to go for quite awhile yet, not until he absolutely had to. "Staying right here," he murmured, a soft rumbly sound as he shifted, making himself more comfortable, sinking into Shinji and god, he couldn't remember the last time he'd been this relaxed. He didn't ever want to move ever.