lg: kippei and shinji and ann

[shattermelt]

Kippei hadn't really thought about it that Ann would be there when they got home. Shinji was coming over and that was about the only thing on his mind at the moment. He wanted to run all the way home, but he doubted Shinji would want to, so he contented himself with walking as quickly as possible, telling Shinji all about the game and generally feeling high as a kite. He was talking too much, way more than he usually did, but he was excited, more than he should be, and he wanted Shinji to have fun, so he was a little bit nervous. It wasn't like they'd never done this before, but they'd never done this like this.

However, Ann was there when they got home, calling out a greeting as they came in and he came back down to earth a little, remembering their conversation and his sister's sharp eyes and wondering if this was maybe a bad idea.

"Hi, An-chan," he told her, with somewhat less enthusiasm than usual. "You want something to drink?" he asked Shinji over his shoulder as they made their way into the kitchen.

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[teagoblin.livejournal.com]

Shinji felt Kippei's mood plummet as soon as they got in the house and wanted to walk right back out again. God, what made him think Kippei would actually be comfortable having Shinji in his house? He probably only suggested it because Shinji wouldn't play tennis with him. And he was obviously embarassed to have Shinji there when An was home. Shinji nodded a little weakly to An, and then nodded again, a little more strongly to the question, not trusting his voice at all. But then he realised Kippei wasn't watching and hadn't seen.

"Water...water's fine." He was doomed. He could hear the cheesy doomed music in his head.

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"Hiya guys!" Ann chirped, happy to see them both and instantly curious about why on earth they weren't happy to see her. Something was going on and whatever it was, she was going to roast her beloved Niichan over the fires about it later. "Whatcha up to?"

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Kippei grinned, unable to keep the good humor from showing and mentally kicking himself. She was totally going to know and he was going to kick her ass if she said anything.

"He's going to try to beat me at that new game I got," he told her, some of the anticipation filtering back in because Shinji was spending the whole afternoon with him and it was great.

[teagoblin.livejournal.com]

Kippei wasn't getting the water and Shinji knew where it was so he quietly wandered over and grabbed a glass, going to the tap and filling it up, guzzling it down and filling it up again. He idly wondered if maybe he could drink so much so quickly that he just passed out and didn't have to think about the fact he was about to spend the whole afternoon in Kippei's bedroom.

"Like I need to try," Shinji muttered distractedly. "Akira is my best friend...you do know he plays those things like a zombie right?"

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"Jeez," Ann scoffed. "Even I can kick niichan's ass at those games, and I don't even play them that much."

She eyed them again, doing some quick calculations behind her smile. Had Kippei done a complete one-eighty and sorted it all out? Was that why they were so happy, and yet so weird around her? She wanted to ask, or even to congratulate, but a tiny voice in the back of her mind held her back. She didn't want to mess up anything, either. While Kippei was a complete and utter dunce at taking hints sometimes, it was worth a try. "Ne, Oniichan? Do you want a shelled nut with your o-bento tomorrow?" she asked, hoping he'd dechipher the code and give her a good answer.

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Kippei shot her a startled look, distracted from his chagrin over being so distracted that he forgot to get Shinji's water. Did he what? He colored to the roots of his hair, and groaned mentally. Damn her.

"So I suck at them," he muttered, and glared at her behind Shinji's back, shaking his head insistently. Don't you dare!

"They're still fun," he shrugged with a wry grin, trying to control the stupid blush and hoping like crazy that Shinji didn't notice. This was so not fair. Nobody could make him do that but Ann.

[teagoblin.livejournal.com]

Shinji looked over at them and slowly put down the glass of water. He looked at the red hue to Kippei's face and realised An was making fun of Kippei for bringing him home. He was embarassed to have him there...crap. Shinji had never felt so immediately out of place and wanted to fix it or get out.

"You...wait nuts...you make him o-bento?" He really needed better sisters! "Isn't that like..." Incest? No way was he asking that. "...why do you make her make your lunch?"

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"I don't make her!" Kippei protested. "She doesn't usually, just sometimes... when she's apologizing for being a nosy little twerp," he added, giving her a pointed look.

"Can we go now?" he asked, trying to control his impatience and not sound too eager, but he was talking to Ann rather than Shinji. "Shinji is mine today." He was vaguely aware of how that sounded, but he meant it and he didn't care. "He said I could have the whole afternoon... and if I want to beat him at all I need all the time I can get," he added, belatedly trying to fix the statement so it didn't sound quite the way it sounded.

[solaas.livejournal.com]

Ann stuck her tongue out at Kippei. "Whereas he," she told Shinji, "is of course perfect and never apologises when he is a stubborn idiot." She bounced over to Shinji and smooched him on the cheek, grinning. "Sounds like he's not sharing today, so I'm gonna have to catch you later, I guess. You should come over more often, I've missed you~!"

Ann stepped away and over to the kitchen counter, where she could smirk at Kippei without Shinji seeing it. "I'll come up with some snacks for you boys later, when I hear Kippei chuck his game control at the wall."

[teagoblin.livejournal.com]

Shinji was startled as hell by the kiss on the cheek, his hand coming up to cover it, heart thumping harshly in his chest as he wished painfully that it had been a different Tachibana that kissed him even if it was just on the cheek. He exhaled slowly and shrugged, not sure what to say. Kippei was acting so weird. Yeah Shinji had said he could have the afternoon but Kippei was being all determined about it trying to make sure it was just the two of them. Shinji thought maybe Kippei was just trying to make him feel better or important or something and wished he wouldn't because he wanted to be more special.

"You throw it at the wall? You could break it like that you know...of course you know that. Um. We can go. Sorry An-chan."

[flamesword.livejournal.com]

Kippei felt like he was about to jump out of his skin, he was so edgy, still high on adrenaline because Shinji was here, but worried that Ann was going to say something he didn't want her to, and uncertain too because Shinji didn't seem happy and Kippei felt bad but he wasn't sure what the problem was. He wanted to ask, but he knew he was acting weird since Ann was there and maybe Shinji wanted him to be nicer to his sister, and he was probably right, but Kippei knew that no way would he be able to handle being around Shinji while Ann was there.

He wanted to apologize to both of them, but that would mean admitting he knew there was a problem and that would bring up questions he didn't want answered, so in the end, he shot his sister an apologetic look and led the way out of the room.

"I promise not to throw it at the wall this time," he told Shinji. "Well, maybe."

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Ann just shook her head, a little amused. She hoped part of Kippei's jitters were because he intended to actually talk to Shinji today. Ask him . . . tell him how he felt and maybe . . .

But Ann knew her brother, and unless some kind of weirdo miracle had happened, he wasn't going to budge. Yet. "Have fun," she told the boys and turned to the counter to plan the promised snacks.

[teagoblin.livejournal.com]

An-chan was going to make them food. Shinji felt guilty as hell about that; that his coming over to have fun with Kippei meant she had to work but he wasn't fool enough to try telling An-chan not to so he just waved and then shoved his hands in his pockets and followed Kippei to his room.

He loved the feel of Kippei's house; it made him feel calm. Which was weird because nothing about himself in Kippei's house was calming. And they were going to Kippei's room...shit shit shit!

"Are you sure this is okay? I dont want to make you feel uncomfortable or make An do anything or...I just dont want you to think you have to...do anything." Oh wow, that didn't sound right at all.

[solaas.livejournal.com]

Just then there was a knocking without, indicating someone's desire to enter within. That someone turned out to be Ann, carrying big tray of the promised snacky foodstuffs and drinks and glasses and so on.

Ann eyed them sharply, took in the long faces, placed the tray on Kippei's desk and folded her arms over her chest. "So. Which one of you died and why isn't the other delivering the kiss of life yet?"

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Kippei tilted his head up at her, smiling in spite of himself because he was so relieved to see her, and she was right and this wasn't that big of a deal, or it shouldn't be, but somehow it was and his brain was still feeling kind of melted down from realizing that maybe, just maybe, Shinji actually wanted him and whether that changed anything or not and he couldn't deal with it right now.

"Hey, thanks," he said, pulling over the snack tray and ignoring her question entirely. He felt better already, for some insane reason, and he just needed some time to think about things.

[teagoblin.livejournal.com]

Shinji glanced from one to the other, then sheepishly sat up properly and waited to be offered something while he tried to muster a vague smile.

"Thank An-chan, you didn't have to make us anything, I couldn't have waited for dinner, or we could have made ourselves something but you did it for us and that's really nice of you and it smells good..." He glanced over at the tray with sudden interest, but his gaze slid to Kippei and he found himself just looking, and wanting, as usual.

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Kippei could feel Shinji's eyes on him, and it made him feel ridiculously good for some reason, but wary too, because if he looked up and Shinji looked him in the eye then he wouldn't have a chance of doing the right thing or even figuring out what that was. He'd say screw it and do what the hell he wanted, and he was pretty sure An-chan was standing there waiting for him to do just that, but she didn't get it. He wondered vaguely how she'd figured out it was Shinji, anyway.

He poured drinks and handed one to Shinji, his fingers tingling where they touched Shinji's hand for a moment and that, too, felt warm and a bit thrilling instead of painful. It was still, he thought, pathetic.

[solaas.livejournal.com]

Ann eyed Kippei and his sudden smile with a decidedly unimpressed raising of her eyebrow. Clearly, her brother had broken under the strain and was on route to Lala-land. Possibly making a pit stop in Wimp City. Shinji was, if anything, even more pathetic. She was happy about that, though, because it meant that things were really simple.

Things, however, wasn't either boy's strength. "Mou. Shinji, if you'd just do that think I can see you're really wanting now, you'd be doing me a huge favour. And I'll make you o-bentos for a week, I swear."

Fat chance. They were boys, ergo they were terminally dense. "Well, I'm heading over to Junko's. See y'all later." She turned and headed for the door.

[teagoblin.livejournal.com]

Shinji frowned. "I don't see how kissing Kippei would be doing you a favour," Shinji mumbled, then his eyes went wide and he realised what he had said, and damned his bloody annoying habit to ever hell in every culture on the planet. He stood, immediately and winced when the drink tachibana had given him spilled. He had to get out of here right. fucking. now.

"I have to go home. I forgot to put out the trash. Dad'll kill me if its not done."

[shattermelt.livejournal.com]

For a second Kippei was absolutely paralysed, shocked. It wasn't like he hadn't known, or at least suspected, for about the last fifteen minutes, but it was still a brand new idea, that Shinji was thinking anything like that and to hear him just say it like that.... it took him a minute to even react and he couldn't quite believe it, even now.

"Wait, what?" He didn't even notice the spilled drink as he shot to his feet and put his hand out, getting between Shinji and the door that An-chan had helpfully closed behind her. He was beyond grateful that she'd left after dropping that little bombshell, but he might still strangle her for it later because this was all happening too fast and he couldn't think and more importantly, he didn't want to. Shinji was in love with him, like that, and oh god this was so unfair. He forced himself not to just reach out and kiss him and the hell with it, trying to think first, but his head was a chaotic mess and he couldn't take his eyes off Shinji's mouth.

"You want to kiss me?" he repeated dumbly. He felt dazed; but he couldn't hide the hope because no matter how wrong it was, he wanted this, so fucking bad.

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"I didn't say that, you must be hearing things," Shinji noted, panicking. Kippei looked mad as the mad hatter and confused as all hell like Shinji had just betrayed him which he had. Kippei had trusted him and talked about stuff with him and the whole time Shinji just thought molesting thoughts about him. Fuck! Not only had he blown everything, he had also stuffed whatever friendship he had, all because his stupid mouth ran off without his brain. But fuck, he really wanted to kiss Kippei.

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Kippei laughed, feeling dizzy and relieved and he knew what he'd heard, and Shinji was still looking at him like that and he looked worried but he wanted to, Kippei could tell and suddenly he just didn't care.

"Shinji," he said softly, coming closer and reaching out to slide his hand into Shinji's hair, and oh god it was soft and he'd been wanting to do that forever and he just knew his eyes were shouting out everything he'd been trying so damn hard not to say. "You're in love with me," he said slowly, tasting the words like a foreign language; it wasn't a question. His other hand landed on Shinji's waist, pulling him closer and wow, he couldn't breathe, but he could feel the grin about to break his face.

"You deserve so much better than me," he murmured, but he couldn't stand it anymore and if Shinji wanted it that much, it had to be okay somehow, and he finally closed the last few inches to lay a soft, careful kiss on Shinji's lips. It didn't stay careful very long.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

Huh? What the hell was going on? Kippei was looking at him completely differently; the way Shinji had always wanted him to and he was touching his hair and then he had a hand on his waist and was pulling him closer and Shinji's mouth was working but no sound was coming out! Kippei had the most amazing smile on his face, Shinji wanted to touch it, but Kippei's lips were there and then Kippei was kissing him. He was hesitant, not sure about this at all. He wanted it, but that was not the same as being allowed to have it. But he couldn't resist, not when Kippei was kissing him, and his arms wrapped tight around Kippei's neck and pulled him down and deepened the almost childish kiss into something better. Kippei tasted like danger, and that was just perfect.

"I'm in love with you," Shinji finally agreed then realised how one sided that was and froze. But you're in love with someone else. Something older than Fuji. He wondered if his heart was always going to be such a yoyo; if he would always go from such complete elation to an immediate stomping of the heart strings. "You're not in love with me."

[shattermelt.livejournal.com]

Kippei just laughed, because he was kissing Shinji and Shinji was kissing him back and it was so much better than good.

"Are you kidding?" he asked Shinji, a bit incredulously; really, Shinji ought to have figured it out by now, after all, Kippei had been really, really careless today but he'd been so tired of it all and Shinji had been too close and he'd never dreamed that Shinji might feel the same way.

"I've always been in love with you." Since the beginning, since always, and this was still a bad idea but if Shinji had the same bad idea then maybe, just maybe it could work out.

[ayretala.livejournal.com]

Something older. Shinji's eyes went wide and he just stared, for a moment unable to understand what was being said. Always, as in since they met. As in, since before Fuji. As in...always. As in, for as long as Shinji was in love with him. He looked up at Kippei through dark lashes and god, Kippei had never been sexier; had never been more appealing than when he was wrapped in Shinji's arms and seemed even more real; tangible in a way he had never been before. Shinji could touch him, apparently as often as he wanted.

"Kiss me again."