xp log: kippei and shinji
Jun. 13th, 2006 02:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shattermeltKippei was immensely relieved when Shinji finally got his powers back, the blue color fading away and Kippei didn't regret it one single bit this time. He loved the way Shinji looked when he was blue, but it was just too high a price to pay. Shinji when he couldn't hear anyone was miserable and depressed and on top of everything else, it killed Kippei to watch him try to deal with it. Try, because Shinji never dealt with it all that well. Kippei understood, really, and he didn't like it either when Shinji couldn't hear him, but it made everything so much harder than it had to be.
Shinji getting his powers back didn't do anything about the occasional headaches he still had when he remembered things, however. Kippei had told Ohtori that he wasn't mad at him or Shishido, and that was mostly true, but only because he was a lot more angry about the fact that Shinji had been in such a place, in such a condition in the first place. Stuck in the quiet room, with his head killing him because the place that was supposed to keep him safe had been what did the damage. Most of it, anyway.
Shinji still probably would have burned out if he'd done what Ohtori had asked him to do somewhere, somewhen else, but he probably wouldn't have agreed to do it at all if he'd had all his memories, and in any case, the person Kippei was most angry with was himself, because he hadn't been there. But the only thing he could do about that was make sure that he stuck as close to Shinji as possible, never leaving him alone, even if Shinji eventually got tired of him hovering. Kippei hoped that wouldn't happen, but he didn't know either when he'd feel like he could relax. This place didn't feel safe anymore, and it made him restless and irritable and he wanted to kill things, but he'd have to take Shinji with him and he wasn't that desperate yet.
Shinji getting his powers back didn't do anything about the occasional headaches he still had when he remembered things, however. Kippei had told Ohtori that he wasn't mad at him or Shishido, and that was mostly true, but only because he was a lot more angry about the fact that Shinji had been in such a place, in such a condition in the first place. Stuck in the quiet room, with his head killing him because the place that was supposed to keep him safe had been what did the damage. Most of it, anyway.
Shinji still probably would have burned out if he'd done what Ohtori had asked him to do somewhere, somewhen else, but he probably wouldn't have agreed to do it at all if he'd had all his memories, and in any case, the person Kippei was most angry with was himself, because he hadn't been there. But the only thing he could do about that was make sure that he stuck as close to Shinji as possible, never leaving him alone, even if Shinji eventually got tired of him hovering. Kippei hoped that wouldn't happen, but he didn't know either when he'd feel like he could relax. This place didn't feel safe anymore, and it made him restless and irritable and he wanted to kill things, but he'd have to take Shinji with him and he wasn't that desperate yet.
